Chapter 12

After that Kyle and I talked we walked around and talked more about what our lives have been like since I left. I found out that Kyle has a mate and her name is Blair. The why he talked about her was so cute, he talked about her like she was the world to him and I guess she is. I wish I had someone who talked about me in that way. Then he told me about that Rudy became Alpha for five months ago and that he has been dating Gwen since I left. During the hole time he talked about the Alpha I tried to hold my feelings and expressions on the inside, not wanting to let him know that Rudy is my mate. Now I'm currently sitting in the big dining room in the pack house, waiting for my family to show up. I'm sitting between Kyle's friends and my pack. Kyle has his mate siting on his lap and they're very cute. When Blair saw us walk in together, she was really upset. But when Kyle and I told her about us being life long friends she calmed down. Rudy hasn't looked my way since I left the confernce room before. Does he even know that it's me? I'm thrown out of my thoughts when one of Kyle's friends asks me something. "Are you the one who's going to train us?" That blond haired guy asks tilting his head to the side, studying me features. "Yes, I am" I say and send him a small smile. He and his friends soon break out laughing and everybody turns to look at us. Kyle and his mate is sitting quietly, looking at their laughing friends. "What is so funny?" I ask them frowning. The blond guy calms his laughter and looks at me again. "You're so small and little" He says and giggles at me. "Well this small and little girl can take down an Alpha in her human form, so don't mock me" I say turning my head towards my pack members. "Sure you can" He says disbelieving and hissing at me. I'm about to say something to him but Devon beats me to it. "Could you just shut up?" He asks the boys raising to his feet and to his full height. Devon is actually really intimidating when he looks at people like he's doing now. With does eyes and his lips in a strict line, showing them that he's not kidding. The boys stay silent and look at Devon with frightened eyes. "If she wasn't able to take down an Alpha, why would your Alpha call us to come hear and train you?" He asks them pointing his index finger at them. The boys don't answer him and the turn away from us gving me dirty looks. Devon sits down again and I can hear him mumble a small 'idiots'. After a while I start feeling like I'm being watched. I look up from my empty plate and turn my body around. I search the room trying to see if someone is watching me or if I'm just paranoid. I keep on searcing until my eyes lock with a pair of green ones. I know who they belong to. They belong to him. They only feeling that I can get from him is curiosity. I send him a disgusted look and snap my head back to my friends. The door to the dining room is slammed open and in walks four people. Three males and a female. They eagarly start to look around for someone, until their eyes land on me. They all start to walk towards me and I stand up from my place walking around the table, meating them in the middle. The first guy brings me in for a hug and I don't need to sniff the air to know that they're my own blood. My family. "Amelia, you're finally back" Walter says against my neck and gasps could be heard from across the room. FUCK Regret. That's a feeling I believe every human experience at least once in life. I'm experiencing it right now. I regret coming back to my old pack. Regret even looking at him, he doesn't deserve me. I'm currently lying down in my bed in the room that I got. We got six rooms to share. Devon and Al are sharing a dubbleroom a few doors down the hallway, the twins are staying in one room together, Mason, Jason and Tom in a trippleroom, Ina and Em in one room, and I'm staying alone and I'm grateful for that. I don't think I would be able to share a room with someone here. If anybody shared room with me I wouldn't be able to relaxe. I'd be forced to always seem happy and cherfull, when I'm really not. Ever since I arrived here I've been felling slightly sad and down. I don't know if it's because of Rudy or if it's because the pack treats me bad. Earlier today when I ate with the pack and my pack I was getting this weird feeling about them. I can't describe the feeling, but I can for sure tell you that it was weird. When those guys began the harass me, I didn't really care about them because nothing can push me down. Nothin can make me feel like I'm nothing, worthless, weak, ugly, but him and I hate that he got that kind of power over me. I blame the stupid mate bond.