Chapter 298 The Perfect Asshole & Pussy:>>Ep8

"Honestly, that is all I ever wanted. That was the thing that I thought you deserved. It wasn't that you deserved...I don't know, someone sexy. I don't think sisters, even fucked up sisters like me, really want that for their brothers. What I wanted was for someone to do the thing that I did, to look beyond something superficial like...the shape of your body, to see what kind of person you are. I wanted the kind of woman you deserve, a truly good woman, to see that you would make them happy, and to give you a chance. And tonight, I think that I just wanted to show you that your good traits aren't invisible. They are infinite and they are obvious to anyone who takes half a second to look. And I wanted you to know that I saw them. And appreciate them. Because I love you. I just got fucked up in my head when I tried to do it. I am not as thoughtful as you." I delivered this entire monologue to the side of Ben's head. He had kept staring at the ceiling the entire time, just breathing and staring. He barely blinked. I wasn't even sure that he was listening to me. But the words flowed out of me, no control at all. I guess that was a problem I had. But when I finally finished up, I realized that for the first time, I'd really captured the entirety of my feelings for my brother. And I had been honest with him about them, the good and the bad. The narcissistic and the altruistic, all in one. I didn't like everything I said about myself. I didn't hate anything either. I was ugly and I was beautiful, just like my brother. He realized that too.