Chapter 41 Love Makes You Smile & Cry

ELENA'S POV; Antonio didn't come to see me again after that moment. It was my fault, it was all my fault. I was the one making him feel this way, I was the one causing it for myself. I didn't want us to go on like this, so I lay on the bed, still naked as I thought about so many things. Did he still see me the same way that he used to? Did he hate me? I couldn't get over how he had walked out the other time. I felt like a burden. The tears dropped from my eyes onto the pillow I leaned on and then my hand found my purse. I remembered I'd kept the diary in there. I was in no mood to read about anything at the moment. I just wanted to wallow in self-pity. I felt like shit. But I don't understand why I just felt perhaps the book could get me away from reality. Perhaps I could escape this moment if I read it. I moved to open the purse and took the book out. My phone was on and I took it to check if there were any notifications.