Chapter 3 Three

After I came, Enver immediately took wet wipes and wiped his face which was wet with my juice. After that, he also wiped my womanhood after lying down next to me. "Let's sleep for a while," he said hugged me tightly, and kissed my forehead. "I will make you feel good later." "W-what about you?" I will ask. "I know you're still weak because of the intensity of your release, so it would be better if you rest first," he said laughing while caressing my heart. "Gather your strength because later, I'll make sure you won't be able to walk as much as I'm going to do to you." I just buried my face in his chest and hugged him tightly. I didn't do this with him for several months because when he was drunk he always turned his back on me while sleeping. When I hug him from behind, he will suddenly push my hand away so I don't push anymore. "I am sorry," he said softly. “Hmm?” I raised my face so that our gaze met. "Sorry for what?" "I know I've neglected you these past few months," he said. "Do not worry. I'll make it up to you." I don't know why I was suddenly nervous when he apologized. The way he said it was as if he had committed a great sin against me. "I love you." He kissed my forehead and lips again. "I love you too." __________ This time, Enver was sleeping soundly, so I slowly removed his hand from hugging me when I got out of bed. I went straight to the bathroom to wash my body and when I returned to our room I just stared at my husband. I couldn't sleep because of his sudden apology earlier. The tone of his speech was as if his apology had other content. But I don't know how to get rid of the nervousness I feel at this time. And that's when my eyes landed on his cell phone that was resting on the table. My chest started heaving because I could only think of one thing to do at this time. But I'm not in the habit of checking his cell phone especially since I still give him his privacy anyway. But right now, I can't think of that anymore. I took a deep breath as I approached Enver's cell phone. I stared at it for a while before I finally decided to grab it and take it inside the bathroom to look at its contents. I even took a few deep breaths because my chest was pounding hard before I plucked up the courage and opened his cell phone. I set the pin code when we bought this cell phone and I'm thankful that he hasn't changed it yet so it was easy for me to open it. I first looked at the messages application he uses for work. Here I only saw messages from his secretary and investors. Next, I looked at his phonebook and I didn't see anything unusual in the names of the people there. I just know him and some of his co-workers. I even looked at his gallery but I didn't see anything that wasn't normal. So I went through every application that his cell phone had until I found one file. I was a little hesitant to open it because I was afraid of what I might see there but I plucked up my courage and opened it with my eyes closed. And I don't know if I should regret what I did because what just happened to me was something that destroyed not only my heart but also my entire personality. __________ "Are you sure about this?" Ferry, one of the two friends I have, asked me. I am here now in her car that just arrived here at our house. She was the first person I called after I saw the contents of the files on my husband's cell phone. "You know that I won't ask for anything besides this one, right?" she said. "I don't need to ask why you suddenly called me and thought of leaving your husband now. I know that you have your reasons. But at least tell me that this is what you want.” She is my friend but I am not ready to tell her what Enver did to me. I am not ready to let other people know about the sin my husband has committed against me because I know they are on my side and that is not what I want. It's okay for me to be the one to be angry with him. It's okay for me to be the only one who hates him. I don't need to get my friends to be angry with him because I can't let the people who are important in my life hate him. So when I called Ferry earlier, I didn't tell her anything other than to come to our house, which she immediately did. She was even a little surprised when I came out of the house with a suitcase but she didn't ask anymore, especially since I knew she also immediately noticed my puffy eyes. "I..." I don't know what to say to her because I know that I don't want to do this. But after what I saw, I couldn't bear to stay under the same roof with the man I thought would never hurt me. She sighed. "Fine, you don't have to answer that." She started the engine of his car and immediately drove it away from our home. And the only thing I could do was watch it until it completely disappeared from my sight. I know I will regret my decision because I didn't even say goodbye to him but I also know it will only hurt me more if I stay by his side despite the things he has done.