Chapter 9 Ch Nine

Blaine There had been no other option. I couldn't afford to father a bastard. The pregnancy had to be gotten rid of. I had mentally berated myself for getting drunk and having sex with the Omega without protection. My rage had doubled when it occurred to me that she must have taken advantage of my vulnerability on purpose. Perhaps, she thought that if she could get pregnant for me, I was going to change my mind and publicly claim her as my mate. At that moment, I had despised her. How could she have tricked me into believing that she was some sort of innocent soul who didn't care about power? She clearly had dreams of becoming Luna and thought that a child was going to make it possible. Those had been my thoughts. Watching her cower as I expressed my rage had only made me hate her more. It had hurt my wolf to see her that way and I hated that another person could influence my feelings so easily I was both angry at myself and at her. It didn't help that that was the day I had chosen to announce to the Pack that I was making Amanda Eldwyn, my Luna. It had occurred to me that the news was going to completely shatter her but I didn't care. It wasn't my duty to care about the feelings of a lowly Omega. To my annoyance, she hadn't gotten rid of the pregnancy despite how hard I had warned her to. At first, I hadn't wanted to involve Elder Eldwyn seeing as it was my mess to deal with. I thought it rather immature to run to him anytime I had a problem but soon realized that I needed to talk to someone with more experience. Left to me, I would have dragged her ass down to the hospital myself to get rid of the pregnancy but that was only going to cause a scandal. No one was supposed to know that I was mated to an Omega, and neither was it supposed to be known that one was carrying my child. “You do not need to worry. I am going to handle it. Just focus on the Pack and your new bride,” Eldwyn had assured me when I told him about my troubles. Again, I trusted him. He was nothing if not very efficient and intelligent. Within a couple of days, Freya had disappeared from the Pack. I guess I should have felt relieved but instead, I was bothered. Making her disappear altogether wasn’t what I had been expecting Eldwyn to do. “She was too far along for an abortion so I merely convinced her to leave,” He explained when I confronted him. I nodded in understanding and a part of me was sorely disappointed in her. “You convinced her with a rather huge sum, I guess,” I murmured. He grinned. “Huge enough to start a new life for herself.” “Thank you.” *** In the first year of my marriage with Amanda, everything was pleasantly normal. She wasn't clingy and never said no to me anytime I wanted to sleep with her. It was also an added bonus that the members of my Pack all loved and approved of her. The only thing missing was an heir. I figured it was still too early and decided to be patient until the second year of our marriage. “I think we should go see the Pack doctor,” Amanda suggested one evening. “The earlier we realise what the problem is, the better for us.” “The elders are soon going to be breathing down our necks any moment from now. They are probably wondering if I am barren.” Her beautiful blue eyes shimmered with unshed tears and I felt pity for her. Personally, I knew that it wasn't any fault of mine that we had no pups yet. After all, I impregnated my mate. I wondered how devastated she was going to feel if she found out that she was truly barren. With a sigh, I joined her on the king-sized bed and draped an arm over her shoulder. “I'm certain that there is nothing to worry about. Perhaps, all you have to do is reduce your stress levels. But you insist, we will go and see the Pack doctor.” “I am not stressed. I think we should really visit the hospital,” she murmured. We visited the hospital the next day and that was when my world came crashing down. It turned out that I was the infertile one. Doctor Maurice’s eyes betrayed her pity as she handed us our test results and I felt the insane urge to tear her head off her neck. The one emotion I hated to arouse in anyone was pity. It made me feel less of myself. “I can place you on a treatment I’ve been working on for quite some time now. I have not tested it on anyone else but perhaps it might work perfectly on you,” the doctor suggested. I scoffed. “In other words, you want to use me as some sort of lab rat to see if your treatment is going to work right?” Her eyes were immediately filled with fear. “Forgive me. I didn't mean to offend. I was only trying to offer some sort of help.” I was going to tell her to shove her help up her ass but Amanda placed a comforting hand on my arm. “If it's not going to cause the Alpha any harm, I think we should try it,” she said to the doctor. There was one other thing I realized that day. My mate had lied to me about her pregnancy. The slut had slept with someone else and had tried to pin the pregnancy on me for her gain. For the first time, I felt really proud of myself for not making the mistake of accepting the baby. She would have had a great laugh watching me prepare another man’s son to occupy the Alpha seat. Another thing I had to worry about was getting treated. If I didn't produce an heir soon, the whole of the Pack was going to find out that I was impotent.